bang in the bush.

finally, after about 4 months of separation and not hearing your voice, i saw and heard you for the first time.

it might not be much, but it's good enough. i wish i could give you a giant hug to say how much we miss you these past few months.

love love love! :)

like tears from a star.

If blood will flow when flesh and steel are one
Drying in the colour of the evening sun
Tomorrow's rain will wash the stains away
But something in our minds will always stay
Perhaps this final act was meant
To clinch a lifetime's argument
That nothing comes from violence and nothing ever could
For all those born beneath an angry star
Lest we forget how fragile we are

- fragile ; sting

things come and things go.

and everything, not just life, is just so fragile.

i wish i knew what to say to you both. i could rattle on about the usuals. but if you noticed, now all i say is 'i'll here for you.'

because honestly, that's the only thing i know is for certain. i can't promise it will get better, i can't give any advice because things are just so complicated.

but i know for certain, i am here - for you both.

i don't care about how weird things are going to get. 

i don't care about who is more important.

all i do care about is that both of you get healed. and i'll try very hard to help you heal.

i love you both - and i wish you both well.

kasino kayelé

so kuala lumpur proved to be an awesome consoliday (read: console, holiday) in place of bangkok.

the situation in bangkok is pretty fucked up. a day before we were due to leave, a state of emergency was announced. while we partied, got drunk and gambled in KL, 20 people lost their lives fighting against or for something they believe in.

i hope the thais remember that lives - not just hardship - is at stake.

ok, moving on to our trip to KL - it was made up of PURE WIN.

I'm going to list down the myriad activities we did, because i never, never want to forget what happened:

Day 1

• arrived at Berjaya Times Square
• had a coffee and KRISPY KREMES
• arrived at Radius International Hotel and checked in (free upgrade!)
• ventured out to bukit bintang for some bak ku teh
• walked down to pavilion where i screamed when i saw forever 21
• shopped, had some starbucks and headed to nandos for dinner
• went back to the hotel, changed and headed to zouk KL
• partied like it was 1999 (literally) and drank (4 jugs = 140rm!)
• watched as the beau puked at the zouk KL sign 
• sent the beau back, leaving kenneth to fend on his own
• tucked the beau into bed with a warm towel on his head.

Day 2

• woke up bright and early to have breakfast: fishball mee, roast chicken and pork and ampang yong tao foo
• headed to pudraraya to get a cab to Genting! Kenneth bailed due to hangover.
• cabbie drove at 180kmh on a winding mountain road - nearly died
• sat a cable car (south east asia's longest and fastest) through the clouds into genting!
• managed to smoke everywhere and anywhere (bought famous amos cookies while puffing away)
• experienced 21˚C weather!
• won 100rm then squandered it away again at the casino.
• headed back to the hotel for a short snooze
• headed out for dinner at jalan barat - hokkien mee, wanton soup, char kway teow, yong tao fu
• decided KL was too awesome and extended one more day!
• had an early night

Day 3

• woke up reasonably late - had breakfast at the same fishball, yong tao fu place, this time with char siew!
• hitched a ride to genting again, with a very very nice uncle steven (whom i opened a can of worms with)
• had the world's most uncomfortable cable car ride with a family
• gambled at the casino - lady luck had an off day today :(
• had lunch at KFC genting next to the log ride and indoor roller coaster
• headed back to KL, fell fast asleep in the cab
• rested in the hotel room, then headed out for our last hurrah along Jalan Alor
• had an excellent dinner - roast pork ee mee, buttered sotong, chicken wings (with crack no less), dong fen, fried rice and xiao bai chye.
• witnessed a fight!
• headed back to the hotel 
• had the best 3minute instant porridge and beer. And honey bacon bak kwa
• goodnight KL, for the last time.

Day 4

• last day, woke up early to check out
• had great maggi goreng, roti canai and beehoon goreng
• headed out to sungei wang to do last minute shopping
• bought my vinnci shoes
• headed to Times Square for check in for the coach back
• bought 72 krispy kremes among 3 of us
• headed back to humid singapore - tired but very fulfilled.

i hearts kayel, most of all i hearts my two boys. :)