just a note.

nobody, breaks my heart.

OH-EH-SIS

so i started at a new place three days ago.
and it took all of three days to realise that i made the biggest mistake of my entire career.

i now, am sitting in a terrible position - not sure if i should rough it out or struggle to find something new. i'm not sure if this is a sick joke that someone is playing on me.

i am just waiting for opportunity.
an opportunity to feel the same way i felt a while back.

at least at sambadolphin, i was warm and had people i look forward to seeing every single day. and if you are to work in such a high stressed environment, you need to be with people you truly like and love.

i loved you guys, and i am kicking myself for letting you go.

it's too late now, i'm opening an old wound.

farewell.

it was poignantly beautiful today.
it was my last day at my company. it's been one month since i handed in my resignation.

i thought leaving would be easy, but i was oh so wrong. i realised it was the last time i would walk down that red carpeted corridor, the last time i would scan my card at the reader and take off my shoes, dump my bag at the left hand side of the table and turn on the laptop.

the last time i would get that cup of aik tong coffee and have breakfast while i read the straits times and wait for my emails to load.

the last time i would look over to my left and glare at my manager for playing kenny g, the last time i would look across the room to pass a look of approval for the crazy youtube video my designers sent to me.

this was suppose to be easy. but it was the hardest thing i ever had to do at my whole time at my company.

in the middle of the david gates and boyz II men songs, while everyone was singing and giving me hugs of good wishes, i secretly, held back tears that would have easily given away that my stoic stance.

i am going to miss you guys, just like a first love.

to you.

My atoms and chemicals could've been made anywhere in the universe, but they were made here, near you. Near yours.

you made me, alive again.

thank you.