2011.

as 2011 comes to a close, I'm grateful for many things that has shaken me or made me a better person. my top 10 list goes something like this:

1. got me some brotherly love

manage to make my way down to brisbane to visit two of the most missed people of my social life - mer and russ. cue 7 days of crazy cold weather, MSG maximus meals, seagulls and hugs. plus it was a break i severely needed, who better to hang out with.

2. welcomed a spanking new baby

baby jeremy came into my life september 2011 - screaming, red and hungry, very much like any wong in the family. i can't wait to see him grow up into a something beautiful and perfect. your aunty loves you very much.

3. watched a little baby turn into a toddler

this is little baby zachary. not a baby anymore. he's developed personality - strong preferences, tempers, longings and a special laugh. he's learnt what colours he likes, what tastes he prefers, who to suck up to for gummi bears. most of all, he's learnt how to be a protector and a brother. zach, your aunty loves you very much too.

4. headed to kayel x 2 + 1

kayel was a special event because there's where i got to learn more about ken's other half. also, i've never seen ken happier - he loves her and that is crystal clear.

5. had a roller-coasting birthday

had a blast and vomit inducing birthday at universal studios with the beau - it was the best day spent out with him - screaming, sweating, paying ridiculous amounts on dinosaur cups. 

6. having a blast in the office.

it's like it was meant to be - yes work is hard, hours long but everything is swell when the people surrounding you are the best. every day my stomach hurts from laughing. there was a point where i questioned - but i'm glad i didn't leave the glory behind. and speaking about the office...

7. having a best friend around 12/5

this year, ken starting working near me - like 2 seconds away from me. initially, i was scared - what if we don't work out or what if i find him offensive? but then, the universe has a special way of proving you wrong. 8 months down the road, we are still best friends - laughing, loving and lackeying.

8. made a difference - or at least tried to.

i voted (twice!) for the first time in 24 years. i had the 'power' to choose and i believe i chose well. it's nice to hear opinions, listening to banter and try to reason. another 4 years!

9. watched wicked.

watched one of my 7 bucket list musicals - courtesy of the beau. it was everything i imaged - dark, funny and spectacular. i cried at "defying gravity" and at "for good" - one more time then i cried at phantom. one down, 6 more to go!

10. loved and loving some more.

it's hard to find someone who gets you. it's even harder to find someone who gets you and sticks around. i get you too. 3.5yrs on and you still make me giggle like we're on our first date.

2011, thanks for a great time. we're left with one more day before 2012 comes and we find out if the mayans are correct. if that's the case, this might be my final top 10 round up list.

if not, i'm sure 2012's list will be even more awesome. 

happy new year :)

from rock and roll to rocking chairs.

wow, it's been almost 5 months since i updated.
lots of things have happened, yet a lot things have remained constant. and for the latter, i'm am grateful for.

having just returned from an invigorating staycation with the beau to celebrate our third (awesome) year anniversary, i feel quite contented with life.

it's been a smooth sailing relationship for the most part of it that has turned into a comfortable, easy companionship. many people have asked me how i have managed to keep this relationship afloat all these years, and i don't have a definite answer.

both of us have flaws, both of us have 'things'. and while most people have said to find someone that completes you and make you 100%, i strongly believe in finding that person that makes you 150%. the beau makes me better, and for that i'm grateful.

so with the first post in the long time, i'm dedicating this to the man that has made an immense change in my life and direction - it's been a rocking 3 years and things are going to get even better.

love.

k is for king.

 

when i'm grey and old, i will look back at this post and think fondly of trip three to kayel.

Night 1

• took a night coach to KL - best decision ever! no kids, no jam, no queues and reached KL in record time
• checked in Alpha Genesis [which mixed up our rooms = separate floors and no smoking room for night 1]
• roamed the streets for famous beef noodles, and found it!
• bought cigs, snacks and drinks for night cap.
• slept like a baby.

Day 1

• woke up incredibly early for genting!
• same route - uncle steven's cab and then cable car.
• genting was 24˚C!
• lady luck was smiling in the morning, was up 250rm
• had international buffet for 18rm
• lost everything after lunch - 0rm - damn the slots. beau won 300rm at the pontoon table so it all evens out!
• went back for a snoozer 
• headed to jalan alor for amazing dinner - zhi char of lala, veggies, butter squid, roast pork ee mee and fried tang hoon.
• pounded jagerbombs at zouk KL where they played the best of 2010 - lady gaga and all!
• left zouk TOGETHER and buzzed. headed to Batika at bukit bintang for a night cap. 18rm for frangelico with CONDENSED milk. fuckyeah!
• went to bed at 3am, while kenneth ventured for tomyam fried rice supper.

Day 2

• woke up late (i.e 11am)
• headed to the famous Madam Kwans where we devoured the best beef rendang ever.
• walked around KLCC - bought uniqlo, mac makeup and topshop stuff.
• headed back to the hotel for a nap (hell yes!)
• woke up just in time for honda showroom hawker centre to open shop!
• whacked ampang yong tau foo, orh luak, wantan mee.
• headed to Batika again for another round of drinks and cigars.
• went to bed super full, was lulled to bed by stirring tummy.

Day 3

• kenneth goes home today :(
• head to chinatown for awesome crayfish ee mee and yeh kuang mee tai mak. 
• walked like 124329840km to get to the place though, but totally worth it!
• went back to the hotel to get kenneth's stuff where we planked
• sent kenneth off, while having our traditional kripsy kreme doughnuts and coffee.
• while kenneth sat the lonely bus ride home, beau and me went wild in FOS and Pavilion's Forever 21. Total damage was 300rm for shitloads!
• had dinner at honda showroom hawker centre - super awesome yong tau foo again.
• walked back to the hotel to digest, spent the rest of the night rolling around in bed and watching Anacondas - the curse of the blood orchid.

Day 4

• it's time to go home.
• woke up early to eat at our favourite char siew stall. never disappoints!
• headed to times square to catch our bus home.

kayel with the boys, a combination that never fails :)

nine one one.

you know who you are.
you have a problem. and i promised myself that i wouldn't interfere until it starting affecting me.

it has. and i hate it. and i know you don't think it is a problem. i know you think it's fun and exciting.

i wish i could understand why you have this problem. i wish someone else could see that this problem exist and help me with it. i have lost respect for you on a level i never thought i could.

you see me look at you. you acknowledge my disapproval, but apparently i don't mean enough for you to do a goddamn thing about it.

What hurts is that, now, we are taking a hit. when you needed me, i was there. and now, when all i ask is that you think of me above that nasty problem, you can't. don't think i don't know why you rather not be near me, it's because then you can run off, collapse in that vaccum and indulge without me judging you.

worse of all, it's a demon i cannot fight on your behalf. and i cannot make you see it. it worries me so much, i don't want to see you fall down the path of what so many have.

my hope, my only true hope, is that i don't get that call, i don't get that information, that the problem has defeated you.

you have a problem. there, i said it.