//mood. rubs eyes.
there's a halo round my head, bringing me down.
getting use to typing in confined spaces now. haha i guess its alot of getting use to.
wooooohz.
i think that lifes' a little good now. i'm still stark raving mad about i&e module. turns out my class is the class where we have to do our own projects and actually make them happen. not as if we are u noe... the other type of students... that don't have that many projects and all.
plus we gotta take all the cash outta our own pockets.
and what do we get in return? a PASS OR FAIL. not a grade. nope.
should i even bother?
well i think i let out a lot of steam at church these past few days. saturday night was a blast. thanks the team for making the night oh-so-special.
sunday was as always draining, happy then tired. always the same routine.
its a shame i don't enjoy going to church like i use to. its also a shame that i can't find that corner or that spot in church where i can feel safe again.
where is God? sometimes i feel he's too busy rescuing people from a train wreck in india and dying people in egypt. or consoling the victims in london.
don't come and tell me he is never too busy to care. i think my problems are just too insignificant to him that's all.
compared to a lot of people i'm lucky to have a wonderful life, people who love and care for me. people who want me to be happy and tell me i'm worth it everyday.
but its just the little things, to the surface brings.
dear Daddy,
it's been a long time since i said thank you. so thank you for the graces you have given me. thank you for the life of love and comfort you have allowed me to have. but as always, i ask for something beyond physical needs. please daddy, grant me wisdom, strength and peace. Wisdom for my mind, strength for my body and peace for my heart.
and st. jude, intercede for me. that i may find my corner of the church that i can feel whole again.
amen
