sometimes i feel like i don't have partner

red hot chili peppers, under the bridge

well, i do sometimes but then i get reminded that "it's better this way" and it will save me heart from actual ache. and i know, some people say don't spend your life wondering what if, well, i don't want to spend my life saying wrong direction.

the week has been, purely hectic.
i always start the day feeling exhausted.
ok, i tell my being, right after work/school i'll head home and rest.
that plan works till about 3pm - 5pm where plans just make themselves.

MON
spent the entire day studying with my classmates or attempting some work. starbucks at tanglin was infested with tykes. and no one wanted to move to macs with me. booo. the night was littered with the brilliance of kenneth and marriage proposals. please don't assume anything.

TUES
met up with big shots at sph and mediacorp for quick meeting and media drop. good networking but the journalists look so engulfed by their work. i had a journalist have to stand on her chair just to climb over the piles of newspapers and mags. chilling. kenneth at night as i got lost in sengkang and was going in his direction.

WED
did work mostly at home, shaun came over for company. school hols has done him no good. he has lost the will to shave even. he helped me correct my work for school and made my essay sound damn cheem but using huge words instead of acceptable tiny ones.

THURS
missed school altogether, but met with the classmates for mac'd tour - meaning mugging at macs. i ended up typing about 100 words for a 2000 word essay. woooohooo, over achiever. had coffee and cakes and bagels (i'm so british now) wit sera and dinner with kevin before heading to church to kaypoh kenneth.

Highlight of the day: my mac is deceased.

FRI
fell sick. i forsee that final sip of bandung coming to bite me. i laid at home and shaun came over with soup just for me. doctor thinks it's food poisoning but i think it's just my stomach saying ENOUGH! stop smoking and eating and smoking somemore!

SAT
was suppose to be stay home saturday but class was called and from 2-5pm i wasted my time. i absolutely detest that woman and if she didn't hold my grades in her hands i would pop her silly. met my brother for dinner and we went mac shopping. bought the macbook, which is pretty alright.

met my sis-in-law (whoar, i feel odd) and we shopped for jewellery sponsored by mummy dearest. for her only, i was tempted to bribe. then we all met up for a satisfying chocolate dessert and home. oh, and a special visit by mer and victor.

shaun dropped by at 3am reeking of soberness.

SUN
shall not be disclosed.
i had personal stuff to attend, rather touchy. thankfully, someone was with me.


hectic. i bet i'll look back on this entry few years from now and wonder why the fuck i would pack my day like that.


stupid girl.