the new year into 2006 was spent gyrating with 457439807 other party goers in MoS on a fucking hot, drunken stupor. i hated it.
the new year into 2007 was spent at char's place, amidst close friends and champagne spillage. we had mahjong and bubbly. i liked it.
this year, my whole gang spent it apart. kenn at his friend's, russ with his sji boys, char with her family. i was quite scared because i realised i had no one to spend this cannot-be-alone day of the year with.
despite countless of please come to my party's and why not spend it at home's, i decided to forgo the loud party poppers and head over to janice's for one of the quietest new years i had in the longest time.
just six of us, good food and bubbly chilling in the cold new years. i have to admit, i was apprehensive at first, feeling a little empty. but as the night eased in, i realised i had in fact eased into a new brand of partying - quiet, few people and just talk.
that's what i did this new years, talked. spent it with people who wanted to sip wine and not down it. we talked abt so many relevant topics that concerned me. our lives , our regrets our resolutions.
ee peng, mark, me and steph. at the stroke of midnight!at the stroke of midnight, we just stood around, with our shots in hand and yelled. hugs and wishes later, we resumed our talking and chilling over good conversation. i liked it. in fact, i craved it. after years of loud and head banging, this is exactly what i needed - peace and quiet.
this new year's, instead of making resolutions, i've decided to reflect and be thankful for:
my family. for accepting that finally, i am older and letting me lead. this year saw many points that made me realise family is such an important element in our lives. i saw so many broken relationships. the unit is so essential to well-being. i'm glad i can come home at night, get a cup of milk and sit around with my brother and chat, i can take silly pictures with my mom and give my dad a hug for soup he lovingly boils for me.
my old friends - those that stuck around for years for some reason i cannot fathom. despite my ways, they just stuck around for more. they got to know me more and more. i'm grateful for every little stupid thing we go through. kenn, russ, and char are just the closest thing to true love i have encountered. i'm truely blessed.
my new friends - people i've met along the way, people whom i've grown towards such as the bunch in the first picture. enriching my life day by day. these new relationships change the course of my life. for sera and candy who have become my essential thursday additions. thanks to steph and janice, brian and meanie who transcended from 'just friends' to 'friends'.
my past - every single event in my life has led me here. which isn't as half bad i thought it would be. for every ex boyfriend, every fallen friendship, every mistake, i've not forgotten you. most of all, you brought me one step closer to knowing what i want in my life.
my school + job - of which one prepares me for the future, and one sustains my present. i thankful for imsg taking me in and letting me take the steering wheel. i'm thankful for colleagues that take time to teach me, as well as ex-colleagues who are more concerned for my growth than i can be.
my God - for reasons that i will find out soon. right now, i'm away from this whole religion thing, citing obligation over dedication. but i will be ok soon.
my life - every breath.
i have so many things to look forward to in 08 - the brother's wedding, going for a short trip, graduating and most of all, becoming an adult. so many new horizons to explore, so many new encounters to take my breath away. i'm going to take this year as slow as possible, to really soak in everything that occurs around me, simply because this will be the year that change will take over me.
change. that's a scary thing. but somehow, i cannot wait for it to engulf me.
2008 spells excite for me.
happy new year everyone.
it is indeed, a happy one.
