oh, an update on the job thing - i've written the letter. the only thing left to fill in is the date at the top right corner.
God, i know - i can feel it - you have something great installed.
and world, i know - i can feel it - you can't really stop me.
i'm feeling far more motivated that i've ever been because i know i'm not the only person who feels this way.
after a heart-felt conversation tonight with someone who had the guts to do what i will eventually do, as well as with two people that feel very much the same way, i realise the problem doesn't lie within me.
i shouldn't have to feel bad for having plans with my friends or beau after work hours.
i shouldn't have to feel bad for leaving at 7pm - even if it's an hour after office hours.
i shouldn't have to get slammed for telling a client "no" to protect my creative team.
i shouldn't have to do something that is not part of my job when i already have so much work to do that is related to my job
i should be able to trust my senior to protect me if my client abuses me.
i should be able to enjoy going to work
i should be able to be proud of the things that i have done
i should be able to say "this is not right, i would do it differently" when i feel it isn't
i should be given credit for something i created all by myself
i should be able to learn on the job - and not have things taken away from me because someone feels that they like to do it too
i should be able to inspire my team.
i should believe in the things i tell my clients day after day.
i can't run this way - my attitude is changing everyday. i work with people who think work life balance equates to 'being able to turn off your blackberry when you are out of the office'.
there are people here who make me seem like a loafer just because i want to leave the office before the streetlamps come on. or who just drive things to the ground because of KPIs and money.
and all because of what? no bonus, no respect, no balance.
i'm done and sick of it. i need a place where i have people who will have the balls to stop being yes men and start believing in the company.
and most importantly, start believing in me.
