they've been keeping me sane.
and very very busy.
suddenly
it just hits you.
emptiness
and that you are no longer
going to be sitting in that brown chair
no longer going to hold your great grand kids
no longer going to give me that toothless grin
or that approving smile.
until the day she was alive, she still asked if i knew how to go home on my own.
i am still ah ma's little girl.
