//why.//

i really don't know why i try anymore.
it's that horrid taste in my mouth and that sinking feeling
when things don't go the way that you want it.

it's so difficult trying to make the best out of the situation.
you and me across the way. i stare and have you glance.

i think it finally hit me.
that gigantic weight that i thought left me
is back on my shoulders.

i finally managed to cry.

//every beat of my heart//



this is what we do at the office.
when the bosses are out. and the coast is clear.
and when the sky is clear too.


that's why i love my job.

//he's so fragile//

one mushroom salad. chopped parsely. herb and olive spices. olive oil. chilli powder.
toss.

it was blissful and subtly pleasing. me and a mushroom salad on a friday night watching will and grace on my teevee.
the parents away at dinner, the brother out with the girlfriend.
the house all to myself.

i can't wait till i really start celebrating.

the other night, i met with merlynn and desmond and we talked for hours as usual.
maxwell market lived up to its standard.
dumpling soup. oyster egg. chicken rice and seafood sang min.
oh and scrumptious hum ching peng.
but the old guy who did the hum ching peng was hunched and i almost gave him my life savings.

was it a ploy

and marrakesh for the 5th time in 2 weeks. the place is just wonderful.
or as my boss would say: "vundaba!"

sidenote: the hottie nearly killed me today in two separate ways. one was he nearly drove into the barrier while it was going down. and two, he attempted to sing ironic by alanis morrisette."

oh woe is me.

//six degress of separation//

mos was great. i guess it's quite impt who you spend your evenings with.
so final attendence was mark, meanie, ros and me. crushing through the crowds
gyrating in the cage, being happy to YMCA and just having that hour of fun and
euphoria.


the sweetheart.


love mavericks


me and mark and alcohol.


mark and alcohol.


meanie and ros


on the dancefloor

it's hard to know that you still care.

//the double dealer//

ok. if there's one thing that i have learnt from my internship, it has to be crisis management.

i can, i can, i can manage this crisis. oh well, karen there you go again
(perhaps it sounds like a musical. at this point, there will be a barber quartet coming out on cue to back me up)

work was good today. all the bosses were out so it was just me and the account managers.
we ate in the office (which a huge no no)
we watched alot of youtube.
we went for a two and a half hour lunch

we even crowned the new miss vietnam.


presenting ms hoichichi minh.

but it was 530pm when we realised we HAD to do some work.
and it ended with me and the hottie in the car, singing bubblegum pop like we were 14 year olds at a britney concert.
he had the pink polo to prove it.

dream catchers on the floor.

//who are you//

it must be my lucky day.

one i had orgasmic chocolate cake in the office
two i found 10 bucks by the side of the road
three at the gym, i did extra mins on everything and still didn't hyper-ventilate after that.
four my mom OFFERED to buy me the shoes i wanted.

i swear something bad's gonna happen.

//i think we're alone now//

the whole office left for lunch and i am left holding the fort.

but why karen? why?

because a certain fake boob client whose name is not mentionable due to certain type of unmentionable law decides that she can only meet me during lunch to settle certain unmentionable issues which cannot be settle at another time.

and to that i said: "oh why of course, i have nothing better to do then forsake the one hour of my working day which i can do anything i want and get paid and meet your royal boobness."

she better make it quick. i think silicon is edible.

//get over it//

five things you learn from working 9 hours a day two days straight in a black unbreathable shirt under a stuffy marquee

1) helium balloons can be a handful (see the picture above)
2) singaporeans can ask the weirdest questions. (if i only buy the console, don't want the service provided, is it cheaper?)
3) charlene attracts very lecherous people
4) if starhub and the pony (the product i was promoting) had a partnership, their tagline would be 'HUB THE PONY'
5) free drinks = typical hello kitty syndrome

i'm just glad my feet are still intact.

//what lies ahead//

funny how time changes how we see

merakesh again tonight. drinks and more drinks
i never laughed like this for the longest time.

i guess when the truth shines into your face like the morning sun
it's hard to ignore.
it's almost transparent now.

you keep me safe in a crazy world.

after merakesh, we had to have some bak chor mee. amazing fishball can.
and all the talk about secondary school came.
how the aircon spat a lizard out
how i watch tv shows that no one ever saw

everything in its time

//you're leaning in closer//

do you believe in omens?

suddenly, i do.

//you and i collide.//

crazy crazy night.
two types of alcohol
two dares
two kisses.

well the night spent with mark was good, it was insane to say the least. char and seno bunked in as well.
the morrocan bar at clarke quay was wonderful.
good drinks, good and very adorable waitresses and good company.

sidenote: char is dangerous

when char and seno left, we grabbed a bite at macs then headed to the river for a jolly' good can of stella artois and hoe garden.
talking to him is like a breath of fresh clean air.

and now i'm home.

there's craziness in the air tonight.

//she's so high//



happy birthday lynda lim kopi.

it was the very first birthday at the office today and as usual we all sneaked around to buy the $40 cake for the princess of the office. And to this she went: "my birthday is tomorrow leh."

haiyo. voting day tml, don't you remember?

i hate elections.
i don't really care much for the opposition.
i tell u now, many know my vote isn't a secret.
i hate it when people tell me that PAP is stiff
i hate it when all they see is the things they cannot do.

i see 41 years of growth, amazing beautiful things that happened to this little red dot.
but then again, the opposition is getting stronger. kudos for this time a lot of them did their homework.
i considered them for a little while.

then again, i think not.