//hearing aid: last kiss - pearl jam

sentosa was ohmygawd amazing

so three of us, des, mer and me, set off on a one day exercise buffet at sentosa.
first i lost my wallet but then we found it again.

then we played frisbee for a while at the beach. amazing workout and we were pretty worn out for a bit.



then came the luge. the funnest thing ever. first let's conquer our fear of heights by sitting a 7 storey high chair lift.



the chairlift stopped half way and all of us swung to and fro for the longest 30 secs of my life. i was screaming, praying and the whole thing was swinging gayly in the wind.

but the whole fiasco was forgetten when we sat, the luge.
its like a go-cart but like 100 times more fun.


damn fun can.
it goes 70 km/h and you have to swerve and curve and go crazy.

then after do that a couple of times, we walked to mount imbiah to have dinner. subway was good, but messy as usual.
just as we were walking out, we saw the cutest bus. an open top vintage bus and of course we hopped on.




we were kids once again.

we then walked from the beginning of siloso beach to palawan just to bathe
but nonetheless good workout.
and the weather was perfect. not hot at all but windy and cloudy.
it rained only when we were showering and by the time that we came out, the rain stopped.
all the buses came on time and we hardly waited for anything.




its one of those perfect moments

the big one zero zero

yes it's the 100th post on this blog. (not that its a big deal but hey, i'm sentimental)

i decided that i want to marry chandler bing of friends.
he's smart(ish), funny, gentlemenly and i would allow him to puff away on his ciggarette.
but then again, if a man like him existed, he might be the bane of my existance.
he seems always free, he would sacrifice his ear drums for someone like janice (heh heh heeeeeeeeh)
he works in a multi national corporation and calculates the WENUS (weekily estimated nett usage statistics) and ANUS (annual nett usuage stats)

so basically, he's got a job, great friends, funny, sentimental, smokes, smart(ish) and has his own place.
he is like the perfect man


if all else fails, at least there's great sex with joey.

//hearing aid: swept away - christopher cross

Never had anything happen so fast took one look and I shattered like glass


i got:

- one gingerbread man thanks kris and gen
- one 'mating rituals' organizer thanks charlene
- one made from scratch fruit cake thanks ben
- one dart pen thanks gerard
- one diamonate pendant thanks a. margy
- one ipod shuffle and red leather case thanks kor
- one pair of havanas thanks a. yvonne
- one estee lauder makeup set and bag thanks vienna
- one brown straw bag thanks glenn
- one lipgloss and handphone pouch thanks jason and mel
- one star named after me thanks bran
- one ang pow with twenty bucks plus plus thanks raj
- one hundred bucks thanks mom and dad
- one thousand bucks thanks grandma

i love my grandma the mostest. yes i was shocked when she passed me the cheque.
please pray for me not to go on a shopping spree.

xmas was quiet this year. gigi's place with booze as usual, this time they bought food so no one got pissed drunk. but a few houses down the road was a snapshot of me and my gang a year ago. a few kids got wasted like we did. i guess its the age thing.

xmas day was spent with desmond and the family. we brought out shaun for a movie, king kong. Not bad but the movie was ruined by a crying kid infront, and when i say kid i mean like can't-even-walk-on-itself-own kid. and three pre-puberty-ish girls at the back of me that kept on asking why would anne darrell like the big nose man instead of the animal catcher guy.

despite everything, one thing was good: adrian brody.
iwanttomarryhisass.

pictures are coming up soon.

//hearing aid: all my life - kc and jojo

i promised to never fall in love with a stranger

i think it was one of the most romantic weddings i've been to.

imagine
walking down the aisle with your beau, hand in hand. rose petals along the floor, beautiful candle trees hang loosely alony where your tread. the lights are warm and dim, the stage in front of you lit with candles and island lights.
there are roses everywhere, KCI and JoJo playing in the background.
all my life, i pray for someone like you. and i pray that you feel the same way too

you see 800 of your closest. the whole room looks like it is on a passionate fire.
and the best part?
your best friend, your lover, your dearest is next to you. thinking the exact same thing.

i've been to many many weddings. but this one was so special. somehow, even though in the afternoon there were alot of hitches and bitches here and there, it turned out so magical, almost surreal.

and CL and HM look amazing together.
when i first met them, i didn't think much of them. as in, they looked so weird together. he was big and muscular, she was pale and to the skinnier side.

tonight, they looked so 'married'. bah.
i'm in one of those moods. where i think that i would say yes to any proposal.

the sweetest most mushy part of the wedding was when both CL and HM planned suprises for each other and of course the organizing committee knew about.

first CL's suprise video came up and HM's face changed. she watched the video in tears of either shock or utter disbelief.
then when we brought out HM's video after that as a counter suprise, CL burst out laughing and he hugged her so tightly, she could have deflated. they locked in an embrace for a good 30secs before CL shouted "that's why i love you!"

i cried.
oh well, i wasn't crying but more of welling ok.

my fairytale wedding is so clinche. yet so satisfying.

//hearing aid: as i lay me down - sophie hawkins

i run to meet you here. barefoot and barely breathing

my hair is good to me. i like it and apparently this time it likes me too.
val's hair is good but its not short anymore so i can't rub her spiked hair and make her irritated

here we are at ade's place. school's been bitchy but its better than before. i'm at ade's place trying to be hardworking but with her snake at one corner and val at the other, its hard.

met with kev today after months of not seeing my favourite toy boy. its been ages.
its nice to talk to someone who understand everything u say. and we of course went through the evening with plenty of dirty talk.

"how come your menu is wet? Am i touching mine the right way?"
"I can't cut through my cake, am i making it hard?"

i miss you kevin ho. and i'm glad we hung today.
we shall hang again.

then after all, i met val and pearl (pure chance) and we're now at ade's place. pfft.

pfft.

//hearing aid: still shiny happy people - moby

val looks famazing
so good that i got to have me some of that.

so i did.

watch me soon.

//hearing aid: shiny happy people - moby

Shiny happy people laughing meet me in the crowd

i like the clickity clack sound the keyboards make in mrm class.
that's probably the only reason why i'm blogging in class.

i'm sitting next to val whose gonna be bald in 3hours or so.
she might look like a rock star. or a celebant monk.
either way it's a good look.
if you are gonna turn out like you have headlights on your head, i might still like you

it seems like nothing happened much this year.
oh yes. mass comm happened.

who would have known me signing up 2 years ago for mass comm would mean throwing my social life out of the window.
if i was a freak show at a carnial, my tag would say:

"come one come all, look what mass comm spat out! its like moby dick, but only without moby."

shiny happy people holding hands

//hearing aid: that song on goldheart tvc

my tears are slowly melting, in your heart


renaissance latest by me.

fuck.

school reached a new high.


does anyone know the title of the song on the goldheart tvc?

//hearing aid: she's so high - tal bachman

I know where I belong and nothin's going to happen

all i can say about the week is:

ugh.

big fat ugh. pfft.
the crunch time has come. and i've got beautiful wisdom teeth sprouting like vegetation all over the place.
fonnying.

on the bright side, xmas is around the corner. everyone's being so happy and christmasy.
i ought to get into the mood. but somehow xmas is not the same.
no u. tommy this year.
no midnighting with the ching gang. or sorts.

pfft.

//hearing aid: wonderwall - oasis

I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now

i cannot believe this.

the people who mean so much to me
don't think i mean a lot to them.

all i asked was one night of you. come down, watch me perform. watch what i love doing, what my choir has to offer.
watch what i did every sunday, and experience the music.

but no. you couldn't

one of you just decided that it was beneath you to come watch me sing.
two of you decided to visit a relative when i wasn't there.
one of you lied to me just to get out of it
one of you forgot even though i reminded you the day before.
all of you don't have the decency to let me know before hand

i stood there at the performance, watching every single face, hoping it was someone i wanted to be there.
but no. NO ONE CAME.


all my friend's parents came.
russ, kenneth's and nick's parents where beaming with pride.
All their friends came. Some who didn't even want them to come made an effort to come and support them. some brought flowers, candies and chocs for their friends and families.
video taped them, snapshot them.


i stood there like an empty shell, the only one who could apprieciate me... was me.

//hearing aid: iris - goo goo dolls

and i'd give up forever to touch you



it was nice.
not crazy nice.
but sad nice. subtle nice.

i have this urge to get the soundtrack.
even though it was just the same melody playing in different beats and lyrics.
i like it. the whole flare.

love is merely a madness. was what hit me.

//hearin aid: here is gone - goo goo dolls

I thought I lost you somewhere but you were never really ever there at all

school's overwhelming like a leech who sticks on your skin and has a layer of fire retardant on it.
it just won't come off.

i went down one night stand after grandma's just to see if david's still performing there.
here is the part where my tv prod group is going to hate murder me in cold blood.

he left. like a month ago.
and my mom knew but it slipped her mind.

So after travelling from novena to clarke quay alone and very quietly as the phone radio is down, i reach to a generally empty club. After asking around, the manager came out said david's home in canada. it was heartbreaking...

only because i can see val and adel's face twitching with the uncomprehensable urge to take a chopstick and shove it up my nose. repeatedly.

(side note: adel i hope your nose is feeling less raw heh.)

... and i stood there in a slight state of shock. ok. i muttered.
do you have any other acts? i explained about tv prod.

oh yes, he laughed gleely. but he's not very good lah

ok. i just said my thanks and ran out to prepare to get killed.
but i got a plan B! but its not a solid one. heh.

i'm not going to be killed but just in alot of pain.

//hearing aid: stars - switchfoot

Maybe I've been the problem, maybe I'm the one to blame


latest by me

its been a horrid week so far.
from me being sick to rejection for going to a camp
to work piling up, the boyfriend and church crap.

everyone's got this preset notion that i'm wonder woman. i should/could/would do everything and anything

i hate it when people in my church come to me and ask me to do publicity/advertising/emcee-ing/posters/movie/radio commericals just because i study it in school

fuck off. i'm human. I AM STILL STUDYING IT. which probably translate to i'm no good at it yet.
Go ask my professional photographer brother to take the photos.
ask the paid do-for-a-living pro to do the publicity and advertising.
go ask the real DJ in church to do the fucking radio shit.

you guys have these vision. but don't forget me.
i'm only a student. i'm not some high paid slut slave for you to abuse and make use of as and when you wish.
you guys took the joy of going to church and actually helping people.

its just a bad bad time for me now. i wanna curl and die.
and you're not making it better

And maybe I'm overcast and maybe all my luck's washed down the drain

//hearing aid: iris - goo goo dolls.

the ex files

since i was still feeling sore about missing the vunderful weekend with the pimps, i decided to endulge myself into 4 more hours of sleep.
woke at 12 and missed church all together. pfft.
was feeling lousy in the afternoon so i decided to

grab the cousin and run down to ps to find an organizer for desmond
he needs to be organized. ha.

so off we went browsing through shop after shop.
you know guys and bose? yeah it happens. the cousin ran into the bose (or was it loewe?) and left me outside against the railing.

lo and behold.
i meet the ex.

he looks awful.
shan't say much. find out more from me.

we exchanged a few words and apparently, he's doing pretty while in the states.
i can't stand it, he looks like a girl.

just then the cousin walks out and has an extremely puzzled look on his face.
"where have i seen you before? OH! at makan session at the 3rd aunts? eh where did you go?"

i nearly died. yes i failed to tell the now no-longer-close cousin of mine the truth behind the whole saga
but
being 21 you should know.

despite all, the ex is still the suavest. he smiled and waved, flicked his hair and walked away.
i melted. into a puddle of cow mucus.
he has longer hair then me la

it has been like 2 years since we spoke and boy, has he changed.
and his new girlfriend, cowers in fear behind him.
look sweetheart, you should be ashamed. he ended up like this WHILE with you la.

I don't see the man i use to be with anymore. i think he died when i slapped him.
my cousin still doesn't get it. sheesh.

i guess its times like this i'm glad i didn't have to lie to be better off then the ex.

//seeing eye dog: america's sweethearts - teevee.

its funny how your name stands for opportunities and you gave me none.
you denied me of a space because i was sick. but recovered but not fast enough apparently
i hope you read the email, learn some human relations from it and not turn anyone away from your retreat again.
sister

because i couldn't go to the camp for some unforseen circumstances, i went out with desmond for the whole day. We went to sim lim. ok.
and then we went to cine where i rediscovered my love to GUNBOUND! ha.
then makan at jacks and now i'm home, doing my projects
having a room all to myself, the aircon at whichever temp i want, doing whatever whenever.

yes i'm just bitter but hell, i should make the most out of the situation.

i am not going back to your weekend. no, what if i fall ill again?

//hearing aid: into the round up - ocean's twelve ost


by lin xuanbin. my favourite piece to date

it just might be retribution. but then again.

i stuck at home with food poisioning and severe fatigue.
might as well, i could catch up on work. and sleep

there's just nothing in my head now besides throbbing pain